Dear Mom –
I feel like a woman on the verge. On the verge of many things. Sometimes it is frustrating, and other times it is kind of cool. I am on the verge of having a clean house, a well-rounded dinner, finishing the painting in my kitchen, losing 10 lbs., having money in my savings account, getting the laundry done, painting my toenails.
There are so many things I am trying to do, or want to do – but it seems like I never really get there. On the other hand, I do so many things that life is never boring. Is this normal?
Everyday I am also on the verge of complete happiness, or sadness, or silliness – or contentment, depending on the day. I am also on the verge of having it completely together, remembering everything I was supposed to remember, having all of my bills paid, paperwork done, or dinners cooked on time.
I do so much but most of the time I feel like I am not getting anything done – and more often than not, I feel overwhelmed. All of the things that need to happen to run the household, manage my job – not to mention my life, seem to swell up and it me in the face like a brick wall. This weekend I felt like that. All productivity was completely shut down because of how overwhelmed I felt. Am I crazy? or just being hormonal? I really need to talk to you about this. I wish you were here.
I miss you.