I worked out with Jen and a co-worker today at 6 am outside in the rain and drizzle. The workout was so difficult I felt like I kicked my own ass. It was freakin AWESOME!
Friday Fitness Freakout
20 Friday Oct 2006
Posted in Fitness & Health
Monthly Archives: October 2006
Grateful Wednesday: The Strength that God Gave me
18 Wednesday Oct 2006
Posted in Being Thankful
Today I am grateful for the strength that God gave me.
I am thankful for the strength and determination that lives inside of me–the ability to overcome obstacles and make it to the other side standing on my own two feet. I am thankful for my resilience and ability to bring myself out of not so good days and moments – to plough through and continuously refocus on things that are really important.
I am thankful for being physically strong – to be able to work out at a pretty intense level for a 43 year-old, significantly overweight woman. If I keep this up, I will truly meet my fitness and health goals. A good friend once said, “Susan, you are worth at least 20 ponies.”
I love it.
I remember October
14 Saturday Oct 2006
Posted in Letters to Mom
It’s October again. The air is crisp and cold, the crows are flying about, the trees are bursting with color. Halloween is in the air and the kids are full of anticipation. Every year at this time I fall in love with life again – for some reason, this time of year makes me feel really good inside.
I remember when I was in elementary school, and Daddy took me to our book fair. It was October and there was a special Halloween book I really, really wanted. I remember walking into the school with him, my hand in his – and my excitement and anticipation of the event. More than anything, I was there with him – with my Dad. We entered the school and I walked tall and proud. That day he bought me all of the books I wanted. but the gift he really gave me was time with him – time without me worrying about all of the sadness and that helpless feeling I had so many times as a little girl. For once I didn’t have to pretend that everything was ok because on that day, in that moment, I was really, really happy. It was October.
I think that this is why I love October so much, because at that moment he was the father I wanted so badly – the dad I knew he could be. I have held that memory in the back of my mind for so long, and now I understand why I love October.
I wish you were here.
Love, Susan
Favorite J.K. Rowling quote
05 Thursday Oct 2006
Posted in Quotations
Never trust anything that can think for itself if you can’t see where it keeps its brain
— J. K. Rowling, Harry Potter and The Chamber of Secrets, 1999
Bloggers Block
05 Thursday Oct 2006
Posted in Random Ramblings
It’s been pretty difficult to blog lately – mostly because of what I have been writing about on my other blog. I have been exchanging emails with Kevin Dwyer’s sister about her two younger brothers who took their own lives when they were just kids. I have decided to form a team to walk in the upcoming “Out of the Darkness” walk next June – I will be doing it in their honor, and to raise awareness about this cause. It is a 20 mile walk that starts at dusk and ends at dawn. It will be challenging but very meaningful. Right now I am recruiting folks to join me on my team.
After hearing from her, I cannot stop thinking about her family. She too was very young (older than her two brothers) and she was the one who came home and found Kevin. She told me that somehow you learn how to cope and life goes on. She is now married and has children of her own. I salute her strength, and her ability to find the light at the end of her tunnel.
